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HI Guys!

So I was able to create my own website. I appreciate all your love and support on wordpress, but now I have my own domain name. If you would please subscribe to my webpage and keep in touch on there I would really appreciate it.

All the Best to you and yours,

Kalyssa

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Ohio State defeats Alabama!? The SEC is NOT in the National Championship game!? This is a joke, right!?

I just finished watching the Sugar Bowl of 2015 where #4 Ohio State (Big Ten) defeated #1 Alabama (SEC). I have no ties to either team. I am a Georgia student, therefore, I do not like Alabama. I am the sister of a Penn State athlete and Michigan student, therefore, I do not like Ohio State.

Now that I have my personal history out of the way I will let you know, I was rooting for Alabama to win. This is despite the heartache I still feel from the SEC Championship game where I was privledged enough to be second row at the enszone where Georgia lost to Alabama with seconds remaining in the game. A game where many wanted to say Coach Richt made the wrong call or Chris Conley should not have done what he did. Those statements I do not believe in. First, Richt’s plan was smart. It was ballsy and if it had worked, mind you it almost did, everyone would have praised him and called him a genius. Second, Chris Conley is a Wide Receiver. He has been trained since a young age to catch the ball. He did what he was trained to do. What his muscle memory knows to do. Therefore, it is silly to blame Conley for this game. It takes a team to win, not an individual.

I was rooting for Alabama tonight for three reasons. 1) I am a fan of the SEC 2) I think Oregon vs Alabama would have made one heck of a Championship game and 3) Uncle Kenny McNulty loves Bama.

Here are my thoughts post Game:

1) I cannot wait to watch Saban’s post game press conference.

2) I LOVE that this happened. I love it because this proves that there should be and needed to be a college football playoff system. The Number 4 team just defeated the number 1 team. How exciting! This is part of why sport is exciting! This should make every football fan happy, despite their team, because this has now made for a very interesting championship game.

3) I do not understand why Alabama slowed down their tempo. When they had the fast pace tempo going they were winning. When they switched, they started to fall behind which eventually lead to their defeat.

4) I do not understand the Alabama coaches, especially Nick Saban’s thoughts to change Alabama’s tempo midgame. A tempo they had been running all season. A tempo their team was accustom to. A tempo that their team felt comfortable with, won with, and had gotten this far into the season with. However, I do know enough about sport to know he and the other coaches have enough experience and football IQ to have decided this was best for their team. Whatever the reason(s) behind their decision to change their tempo, I am sure it seemed like the best situation for the team tonight. Sadly, it did not work in their favor. In my opinion of course.

5) As a Dallas Cowboys fan I love that Ohio State will be playing Oregon at AT&T Stadium for the National Championship. I have seen first hand how the OSU fans travel all over just to watch their team play. This will bring a lot of money to the Cowboy’s stadium and to Dallas, one place I spend a lot of time. For that, I think it will be good.

6) Oregon vs Alabama would have been a fantastic game! Both would have played a fast tempo game. Both are great teams. It was something I was looking forward to. Now, I know that will not be the case so I have to start thinking what it will be like for Oregon and Ohio State to play. At this point in time, meaning that I have not given it any thought, I do believe that Oregon will run all over Ohio State in two weeks at AT&T stadium. Then again this is a sport game. Anything can happen. Just like it did tonight. Just like upsets happen every weekend. I for one, cannot wait to see what the championship game will bring!

7) Shout out to my DAWGS for winning last night! ❤ #GoDawgs and Stanford. As well as, all the other teams who have played in Bowl Games. Every athlete works their tail-ends off. Not every athlete can be a winner in the eyes of the system. I pray each of them, in times of feeling frustrated and upset, can take a moment to sit back and remember why they started playing the game they play; why they love the game they play. In doing this I hope they find comfort.

I feel bad that everyone cannot win, since I know how hard athletes work. Unfortunately, that is the way the world is or in other words, “the way the cookie crumbles.” So to every athlete who is feeling defeated, I hope you to a moment to reflect and remember your love for the game. I hope you learn, remember, and remind yourself that winning is not everything (although it often feels like it is). I hope you learn, remember, and remind yourself and other athletes to enjoy these moments. Before you know it, you will not be able to play the game that has given you so much anymore. The ending time will come in a blink of an eye.

When you cannot compete in your game any longer, you will not miss the fact that you lost. You will miss the way the game, your teammates, coaches and fans made you feel. The confidence you felt when you accomplished a goal you set for yourself. You will recall the love you had for the sport, its spectates, your teammates, coaches, and oddly enough even your opponents for they made you a better athlete, which I believe makes one a better person.  I hope you recall the privilege you had of playing the game. These are the factors of the game that truly matter, not winning or losing.  Sure, the reality is there is an adrenaline from winning that is spectacular. A feeling that is so high you want to experience it over and over again. However, I hope you remember it is okay to not always win. You will be better for it. The adrenaline of winning fails to compare to the adrenaline and indescribable feeling that comes from playing the sport you love with the teammates and coaches that have become family.

It’s no secret I am an SEC fan. I believe the SEC is the best College Football Program out there. I am sad, as an SEC fan, that there will not be an SEC team in the Championship game. Except, I am also strangely excited about it and the possibilities the psychological affect that might take place for other conference players which might lead to a very interested Fall 2015 season! I cannot wait to see what happens on January 12th at AT&T Stadium. Go Oregon!

Who are you rooting for to win the National Championship game? Why are you rooting for them?  Who is your college football team? Why are they your team?

Here are my answers: I am rooting for Oregon. I do not like Ohio State for reasons mentioned above, although I do have some respect for them as my brother attended a Big Ten University. I think Oregon is a better team this year and deserves to win. Plus, it would be cool for their Heisman Trophy QB Marcus Mariota to win a National Championship. I can only imagine what winning a National Championship and entering into the Heisman fraternity in the same season must feel like! My college team is the Georgia Bulldogs and that is because I attend the University of Georgia.

Peace, Love, and Football,

Kalyssa

Does a New Year mean A New Me?

January 1st marks a new year. They say a new year means a clean slate. A clean slate means a new self. So in essence I suppose the New Year means a new me.

A New Year, A New Me!?!?

Who do I want the new me to be? What about the old me do I want to keep? New Year’s resolutions…well that is probably something I should have thought about before January 1st, but, like myself these past few years, I have left it for the last second. So, what should I pledge to change and pledge to keep?

What I Pledge to Keep in 2015:

1) Always Honest

2) Always Loyal

3) Family First (this includes my friends)

4) My Heart.  What I mean by that is I wish to keep my deep love for everything and everyone. Often times I am told “you care too much.” This is true, I do care too much. I often get hurt because I love so deeply, yet am not able to be fully vulnerable so it is complicated and hard and often leaves me hurt with friends and significant others. I do not care if I care too deeply for others and end up getting hurt. I would prefer to live another year where I love more than others, because I would rather say that I loved and was hurt than was not a lover. Kind of ironic since I am terrified of dating (hello vulnerability issues) but yet I care, and I care deeply. If you are my friend, you are my friend for life. It is the way I have always been, the way I will always be. Despite being told that if I cared less for others like most people do I wont be hurt as much. I do not care. For I would rather love with my whole heart than be less of a lover.

What I Pledge to Change in 2015:

1) Everything I do should be to benefit and enhance my health. Live life in the moment, meditate, eat healthy, live without  regret, understand what is in the past is in the past, the future is in the future so do not worry, and love and live in the moment for it is a gift and tomorrow is not promised. Love and be loved. Essentially, live like my cousin Brendan P. Tevlin would say, “Good Vibes and Easy Living.”

2) I will learn not leave everything for the last second  (like I have done with my New Year’s resolutions haha!)

3) Health first, School Second, then social life

4) I will blog at least 3 times a week

5) I will keep a personal journal which I write in everyday

  • Write something that I loved about my day and am thankful for (this is what I do each night as I pray to God, but I should write them in my journal. At the end of the year I can look back and reflect. See in writing how loved and privileged I am. This is will enhance myself because i will see it in writing and be reminded of things I might forget if I leave it to rely on my memory
  • Write my daily Highs and Lows
  • Daily Medical Log
  • Daily Food Log to track and see which foods enhance my health

6) I will work hard to allow myself to be vulnerable, honest, and open. I will try not to hold everything in and let it bottle up. This will be challenging as I have had 21 years of practice doing the exact opposite. My bottle is full, the cork is about to pop off. I need to allow my bottle time to breath and come out slowly, rather than pop and come out all at once.

7) I will stop hiding my health difficulties and instead fully embrace them. I will not put on a smiling face and pretend like I haven’t been going through hell for years. This only makes me keep it bottled up and now, I realize, it is worse to pretend like everything is perfect and you are not living a personal hell where your body attacks itself daily.

This does not mean I want to complain or have people feel pity for me (which is why I have kept it a secret for so many years) but I do realize it has hurt me to try and keep it a secret. It has hurt me because it has had me seem like I was disinterested in spending time with my friends, caring for them, or being “sketchy” and no longer hanging around.

I was the girl that was always caring, social, and ready to be there for people. I am still that person, but because I am sick it is harder to do all of those things. It is easier for me to stay away and not be in their lives anymore. Each day changes, minute to minute I feel different. One minute I am feeling energized and ready to go…the next I am too tired and do not have the energy to communicate because I do not have the energy to give them my all, so I thought it was better to stay away. This is false. People have taken this personally or thought I was “being sketchy” or “hiding.” These are false, but I understand why people think these.

Basically, in my attempt to not have others worry about me or pity me. I have had them feel these things for the wrong reasons, or worse, had them feel rejected and unloved by me. That is the one that hurts the most: people I care about thinking I am avoiding them, no longer care or love them, and/or think I am rejecting them. I think about my friends and family daily. It kills me not to have the energy to keep up with them or go out all the time.I hate (a word I do not like to use, but I absolutely mean this word in this instance) I hate that people feel hurt and as if I am avoiding them.

I kept quiet for selfish reasons. But also, to protect others and not have those who love me worry because the truth is I have been rather sick. Little did I know, it would hurt them by keeping my mouth shut. I feel badly about this.

I need to be open and allow myself to be vulnerable in many areas, especially in my best kept secret of living a life with an auto-immune disease. A life where I was undiagnosed for years. Tests, procedures, medications, surgeries, you name it- it was all a secret and happening, making my everyday life harder and harder as time went on. Thankfully I am now diagnosed and in a few months will hopefully be healthy enough to get back out there and be the person those who love me know me to be. I have so much I want to accomplish and do for the world, but in order to do so I must first be healthy and get my energy back.

So, there yall have it. Those are my New Year’s resolutions for 2015. All 7 are important to me. All 7 I need to work hard in order to ensure I accomplish them all. The last 6 are all actually smaller steps or resolutions to accomplish my 1st resolution. Without knowing it I just created the steps to accomplish my first resolution. The year 2015 will be about my health. I truly believe if I get my health under control everything else will fall into place.

A New Year, A New Me!! #Leehhhgoo

Here is to a wonderful 2015!

May your year be happy, healthy, and rich with love, laughter, family, and friends.

With Love, Hope, and Happiness,

Kalyssa

#GoodVibes #EasyLiving

“If you don’t believe, You don’t receive”: Not a Typical Wish List

Dearest Santa:

You have done so much for me. It is not fair for me to ask for more, except we both know I am going to. It is human nature to keep asking and taking. I thank you for all the wonderful past Christmases I have had! I am writing a note to you this year after many years of not writing a Christmas wishlist. Instead, the past few years, I thought about what I wanted but did not ask for them no matter if they were material or wishes of my heart. I just never wrote them down somehow expecting them to happen and appear despite my not asking. How wrong I was! I have now learned you must ask in order to receive. People cannot read your mind. Be vulnerable and ask.

When I was young I found magazines and circled just about everything in them because those are the things I wanted. I knew Christmas was more than receiving material gifts, but I still wished for material things. I suppose you could say I was a typical four year old.

For years I have not wanted many material things, but still wanted some. This year I can say without a doubt there is not a single material gift I truly want. I know I can find some if I must but I do not want to. I do not want to receive anything that can be wrapped and opened. This year, I am asking for more than I ever have. This probably seems hard to imagine since I have asked for catalogs and catalogs of things, but trust me this is not an easy order for you or your elves to fill.

I can promise you, it will be well worth it if I am granted these 9 gifts.

This Christmas I want:

1) I would ask for world peace, but we both know that would be a waste of a wish. Instead, I ask that my family, The Condon Family, finds peace with our recent loss of our beloved Brendan. It has been an incredibly hard six months without him. The support shown by friends, family, and strangers have been amazing, but it doesn’t take away the excruciating pain. A boy, just turned 19, killed on his way home from a friend’s house. I could talk about Brendan forever but I wont. I will just ask that my family, especially his Grandparents, mother, father, sister and two brothers find some happiness and peace this Christmas. I selfishly hope I find some peace this Christmas as I am constantly thinking about Brendan and even more so my family members who are grieving his loss. I wish I could do something to take the pain away from the people I love, but I cannot. It kills me, it worries me throughout the days,  and it keeps me up at night. I know the pain I feel, I cannot imagine the pain others in my family are feeling. All I know is I want to take their pain away, and it hurts that I cannot. The pain is real because the love is real. May Brendan and all our other loved ones we have lost have one heck of a Christmas in Heaven!! Filled with Irish dancing, playing the bagpipes, drinking some Irish beer, and listening to country music.

2) May all those suffering (the sick, the grieving, etc) find some peace, even if it is just for a minute, this holiday season. Specifically the Musgrove family who lost both of their parents at the end of October, the Hogan family who just lost their father and husband, My family who lost our Brendan, my brother, Conor, who is going through something health wise but we are not sure what it is yet, my grandmother and her siblings who are too stubborn to go to doctors and get help.

3) May I get over this virus and be able to revive my energy so I can do well in school this coming semester to one day get a high paying job. I want this job to ensure I always have money take care of my single mother who has given up literally everything for my siblings and I. As well as being able to ensure my siblings, cousins, aunts and uncles are always taken care of financially if they need it.

4) May my Grandmother, Great Aunts and Great Uncles get over being stubborn, go to doctors and get healthy so they may live for many more years. I selfishly cannot lose another person whom I love with my whole heart. Not now. Not soon. I want them around for many many more years. I do not think I can survive another loss anytime soon. The past few years have been full of loss and grief for me. So selfishly, for myself and my other family members, I hope the Great Aunts and Uncles are around for many, many more years.

5) May you convince anyone who wants to buy me something to instead donate to a cause I am a believer of. (Wounded Warrior, St. Jude, Brendan’s fund, THON, anything helping kids and adults with auto-immune diseases, single parents, etc)

6) May my family and I decide instead of spending Christmas at my grandmother’s together we instead take a few hours and serve food to the homeless. I know that it is not a good idea for me to go out and expose myself to germs given everything that is happening, but I do not care. These people deserve some warmth, food, and love during the holidays and if I can help, I want to. Even if that means risking my own recovery.

7) May my Conor be diagnosed soon so he can get on the road to recover. I am fearful that he will go through years of pain and illness without a diagnosis like I did. I do not believe he has the same thing that I do. I pray he doesnt. I pray he gets on the road to recovery very quickly.

8) Please please please bless every soldier (past and present) this holiday season. Not just them, but their families as well as they too serve to keep us all safe. There are not enough things for me to do to thank these brave men, women, and their families for all they have done for me.

I know I am asking for a lot. This is probably the list that is asking the most from you. If you can please try I would really appreciate it. If these 8 things are not possible, that is okay because I know you have already granted me my 9th and final wish this Christmas: Spending time with my family.

A few weeks ago, when I started this blog, I started following another blogger. The first post I read of Caroline’s was about her daughter, Madison, speaking about you, Santa. I commented on her post where I told her “(P.S. My mama still says “if you don’t believe, you don’t receive” so I still in a way believe in Santa- I just now know Santa is something bigger than the man with a big round belly, elves, and presents)”

Santa: I just wanted to let you know, I still believe in you. I know they say you are not a man with a big round belly, living in the north pole with elves and reindeer but I do know and believe you exist. I just now know you are bigger than a man with a big belly. That is why I know I can ask for these things. I know I need to trust in your timing, but I just had to let you know what I want most this year. I’m writing them because I feel if I write them out that it might increase the chances of my heart’s wishes being granted.

I love you. I thank you. I am looking forward to your day!

Merry Christmas, Santa!

With Love,

Kalyssa